Part 1
Flash Forward
2006...yes it's the year when we, The Oceanic Survivors came back after we were LOST for two years on that mysterious island. The atmosphere is so different here back in reality, I watch one by one of the survivors hugging each others with their parents or families. I look around to see some familiar faces but they are nowhere to be found. I was expecting to see Mas Goen, the man whom I've missed so much, I thought all the survivors' families are gonna be here, right here in this moment 'cause we made the headlines today, but I'm wrong...I'm all alone here with my baby Satya Ginanjar, my son with Mas Goen. Jami look at me with sad eyes, he's been so kind to me when we were still on the island, and if it's not because of my love to Mas Goen, I might have been in a relationship with him already.
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After staying at the 5-star hotel provided by the CEO of Oceanic here in Australia for a week, I decided to go back to Indonesia, 'cause I miss my homeland. Jami keeps on asking me about our relationship, and I said to him that I would get him the answer once I'm back in my country 'cause I still have some unfinished things to do.
I stay in a hotel in Solo once I'm back, 'cause I don't want my family ( if they still consider me a family member ) to know that I'm back already, I'm so angry that no one was there at the airport when I came back...how come???
There is one place I would like to go before I'm going back home, one place that is full of memories. Yes...the old cabin where I and Mas Goen shared that one special night. So I take Satya to the child care center and go to the old cabin in the middle of the forest. I open the door, I thought the room it's gonna be dark but there's candlelight and it means SOMEONE IS THERE!
Just as I enter the cabin, someone who's wearing a Batik turns over and there he is....the man I've been wanting to meet all this time...and looking more handsome than ever....Mas Goen!!!
Mas Goen : "Finally Sitti...you come to this cabin, I can't even believe it that you forget about this place after what we've done in the past here! Wow...you're very quick changing your dress. Oh Sitti today is the happiest day of my life, I really really love you!". Mas Goen walks toward me, and I still don't understand what he's talking about when he suddenly pulls me into his arms, kisses me and using his tongue too!!!
Sitti : "Let me go! (slap) How dare you kissed me like that! And don't say that you love me, you didn't even there when we the Oceanic Survivors came back!!!"
Mas Goen : "What are you talking about??? of course I can kiss you, I'm your HUSBAND, and we just got MARRIED an hour ago!!! Now come to me Sitti, your kiss felt different today, it's like the one that we had two years ago!"
I scream as he pulls me into his arms and kisses me again passionately! That's when a woman in her traditional wedding dress enters the cabin, a woman who LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE ME!!! I recognize her at once as my twin sister, Siti!!! Mas Goen looks so suprised as he looks back and forth between Siti and I, and after a few moments, Mas Goen finally realized that he has married the WRONG SITTI!!!
What happened after that, I'm NOT gonna tell you, 'cause I want to spare you all the drama....
A couple of months later, I finally got married to Jami. He's always there for me whenever I need a shoulder to cry on, he loves me even though I tell him that I still have feelings for Mas Goen. And I don't want to disappoint him even more when I accept his proposal in the end.
We were happy at least for a couple of months but it's just not working. I confronted him one night and said to him that i couldn't do this anymore 'cause my love to Mas Goen never fades away! He seems really really disappointed with me and he left me one night without saying anything. I don't know what to do with myself and my son Satya. And in that time of desperation I came to Mas Goen for help. Mas Goen gladly asked me to move into his house together with our son Satya so that he could be involved in raising Satya together but Siti doesn't seem happy about it, 'cause Mas Goen has been chasing me all this time but I always shut him off, but now...with me moving into their house, all hell breaks loose!!!
Of course I don't want to stay there for a long time, 'cause I don't want to ruin their marriage, I've ruined his marriage one with my stepsister Nadya, and I don't want to do it again with my twin sister Siti. One day Mas Goen asked me what I want to do in my life, and I answered I want to be a MODEL like my mother Keisi! And he used all his connections to make my dream comes true...
Eight years later, I've become this successful Supermodel. The career that I never dreamed of before. I live in my own house now together with Satya who is 8 years old now. Mas Goen still visit us from time to time, he has filed for a divorce to Siti but Siti won't let him go, Siti came to me one night and threatened me that if I get married to Mas Goen, she would commit suicide. And of course and I don't want her to do that. That is why I begged to Mas Goen not to divorce Siti, and in exchange he could still visit us and being involved in our life. Mas Goen agreed as long as me and Satya stay in his life. Sometimes I wonder if I could love another man as much as I love Mas Goen.
Then one night, Jami contacted me again after all these years!!! He says that we're all in DANGER! And I must come to Australia to meet him SOON! So I take the first flight to Sydney and meet him at the local morgue. I'm so surprised to see all the familiar faces there....Jami, Anne-Marie, Mckayla, Charlie, Emme and even HIM the man who brutally killed my mother Keisi...JOSHUA!!! I don't know how he could manage to escape from the island. And I'm even more shocked to find out that Joshua is the mastermind of this meeting!
I think he owes us an explanation but I totally forgot about it once I spot the body inside the coffin...Koi Iroshi!!! The last time I know he decided to stay on the island after Izzie was killed by the Black Smoke Monster. And now how come he's dead already??? and it turns out, I'm not the only one who's confused and shocked. That's when Jami starts to explain why Joshua makes us all gathered here...
Jami : "Things weren't that good after we left the island...we weren't supposed to leave the island 'cause we still have unfinished business back there!"
Emme : "Going back to the island after all of us have been through??? I don't think so...I think it's the worst idea I've ever heard!"
We all just standing there, 'cause no one wants to go back to that cursed island, that's when Jami yells at me "We were happy and close when we were there Sitti. But things are starting to fall apart after we left the island. We're not supposed to leave the Island. We need to go back Sitti! WE NEED TO GO BACK!!!"
Part 2
The Choices We Made
I'm lying on the beach in my swimsuit as my Mas Goen's crawling toward me. He says that he misses me so much as he caress my cheek and kisses my forehead...my nose...my lips...my neck...my cleavage...down to my belly...and then..."SITTI! WAKE UP!!!" suddenly Anne-Marie's voice wakes me up from my sweet dream! "Sitti what are you doing touching yourself like that in your sleep?!" she asks me with a shock expression in her eyes. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed that she saw me doing that in my sleep, I don't know what to say, I blushed immediately, I must have missed Mas Goen very very much...it's been a year since I was deserted here on the island, I have given birth to my son Satya, and I get very close with Jami for the last couple of months. Of course if I need warmth, I could just throw myself to Jami, but it's wrong...I don't love him and I love Mas Goen, the most important thing of loving someone is that you have to be loyal under any circumstances. Suddenly I hear screaming outside of my tent, Anne-Marie and me get out of our tent immediately to see what's happening, only to find out that there's another victim...Lydia Tarigan! I heard from Emme that Lydia was running to the beach from the jungle and she just collapsed to the sand and died! And now everyone is scared 'cause they thought that The Others are attacking us again!
It turns out that there's another dead body found in the jungle, it belonged to Sho Kazunoki. I don't know what happened between Sho and Lydia in the jungle, were they attacked by the others? or did they do this to themselves? we never know, but we decided to bury their bodies as soon as possible. Everybody's crying when Jami and Diaz are burying the bodies, I try to stay calm 'cause I don't want my baby to get disturbed by my crying. But a strange thing happened. Just when Jami was about to bury Lydia's face with dirt, I believe that I saw her OPENED HER EYES! I tell Anne-Marie about this, but she tells me that I must have been hallucinating like I did in my dream this morning. I'm just hoping that they're not BURIED ALIVE 'cause that would be my WORST NIGHTMARE!!!
And things get pretty hectic, 'cause most of the survivors have decided that it's time to attack the others and get the missing ones back. But Ian Wylde comes up with this great idea of building a raft. And now there two sides, the ones who want to get the missing ones back and the ones who want to build the raft and get out of this freaking island. Of course I wanna go saving the missing ones, 'cause there are children among them Jade & Israel Montas. I failed to protect Kathrine, so I feel like I owe Kathrine for saving those kids. Jami tells me to stay here on the beach 'cause it would be dangerous for us to travel to the center of the island, but I don't want to do that, I don't want just to be the weak Sitti who does nothing but whining all the time until we get rescued. Jami finally agreed that I'm going with him as long as I stay protected by him.
12 hours later, we've reached this old ruins in the center of the island. We're amazed by the design of the ruins, it must be the primitives who built it. Just when we're admiring those ruins, a sudden terrifying ROAR shocks us all!!! And it belongs to the BLACK SMOKE CREATURE that I've seen it before....everyone is just running toward every direction....run like there's no tomorrow!!!
I'm about to run when I hear screaming from behind me! I turn around and see Izzie and Dr. Mandela are being pulled into a big hole by this Black Smoke!!! I and Emme are trying to pull them out but we're too late, they've been pulled in and a couple of moments later, Izzie and Dr. Mandela are being thrown out of that hole and hit the ruins really hard. They both die immediately!!!
Emme and I are trying find the other survivors, but I don't know where they have run after the monster attacked. We're in the middle of nowhere and don't know what to do....I'm so scared, I hug Satya in my arms tightly and luckily he's a very good baby, he doesn't cry a lot like most babies. I want to scream calling out the other survivors' names but Emme won't let me to, 'cause she's afraid the Black Smoke Monster might come back if it hears us. So we're just walking for hours until we come across this building with an ORCHID logo on the door. I look at Emme 'cause I don't know whether it's a good idea or not if we enter the enclave. And that's when we hear a painful shout of Mohinder from inside the building. We enter the building immediately and see the horror in front of us! Mohinder's body has been twisted by this spiral kind of thing, it's an awful thing to see! I hold myself trying hard not to puke then I see him, Joshua who is holding Elizabeth hostage and Jami is there too, he looks surprised to see me too. "RUN SITTI RUN!!!" Elizabeth yells so that I could run, "Shut up you little wh*re! DOR!!!" Joshua mercilessly shoots Elizabeth's cheek!!! "NOOOOO!!!!!" I scream out loud, and my baby is starting to cry, that's when Joshua grabs my arm and holding me hostage instead! I'm so panic but I'm afraid to move, I'm just thinking what would happen to my baby if I die here....I'm so scared.
Joshua "Now Jami...don't you dare enter the room or I'm gonna KILL HER NOW!!!"
Jami : "Joshua, let her go! she doesn't know anything!"
Joshua : "If you dare to use the phone to call for rescue I'm gonna kill her like I did with Mohinder and Elizabeth and you know exactly that I won't think twice!"
Jami : "I beg you Joshua...please don't kill her!"
Joshua : "Oh why Jami....? why do you care for her so much? you didn't seem to care this much when I shot Elizabeth!"
Jami : "Please don't kill her!!! I...I...I think I LOVE HER!!!"
Joshua : "So that's the reason...but too bad I like KILLING people so say bye-bye to your little boo!"
Joshua is about the pull the trigger when Uldrich attacks him from behind! I scream as I'm pushed to the floor and I hear a gunshot! I lift my head and see that Meilani was shot and she's bleeding to death! Uldrich and Joshua are now struggling on the floor before finally Uldrich knocks him off! Jami hugs me tightly and says that he's about to die if he sees me dying.....
Jami : "Uldrich...quick! there's a phone inside of the room, go and call for rescue! hurry before The Others are coming back!"
Uldrich runs into the room and starting to call for rescue. I smile at Jami 'cause I know that we're finally gonna be saved when I spot something. "Where's Joshua?" I ask 'cause he's nowhere to be seen! Emme and Jami are looking everywhere but can't find him either, and that's when Joshua's voice is heard through the speaker. "Do you guys think I'm gonna let you all be saved??? DREAM ON! I'm gonna let you all drowned here!" and that's when we hear an alarm sound and a bunch of water is running out of the pipe in the phone room! 
When Uldrich sees that, he quickly closes the door and lock it from inside! "Uldrich, what are you doing?! you can't do that! you may DIE!!!" I scream as I run toward the room. "Uldrich what are you doing???" tears are running down my cheeks as I can only see him THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASS and the water is almost drowning him! I read from his lips movement as he says "Sitti...GET SAVED AND LIVE YOUR LIFE!!!" I cry as I watch him talking to someone on the phone right before he's drowned to DEATH!!! I can't believe that Uldrich has sacrificed himself for all of us....the ones that he just met after the crash!!!
A couple of days later, the rescue finally COME!!! And thanks to Uldrich for that, he's the reason why we all can be rescued. But it turns out not all of us wants to be rescued, I just don't care anymore, I get on the first boat so that I could just get outta this freaking island! I just can't take it anymore...so many deaths on this island! My baby deserves better and THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE HOME!!!
Part 3
Live Together, Die Alone!
My name is Sitti Maemunah, I'm 33 years old and yes...I'm one of the Oceanic Survivors! If you want to know what I have been through when I was deserted on the island, I will tell you. I was a teacher who always thought that the world is so small, cause I only lived in my own world. But its' not true...the world is such a big place that is full of extraordinary things....whether they are good or bad things that make it looked small in your eyes. I was a very unhappy and insecure woman before the crash...yes I was....but now I've learned a lot from this experience!
I learn a lot about love...about friendship...about family...about death...about life....about forgiveness...and redemption...yes I've lost a lot but I've gained a lot in the same time. You may not understand or confused by what I'm saying right now, but you have to experience it yourself of what I've been through to understand how I'm feeling right now. If you ask me, do I want to change my past if I ever get the chance to do that? I'm gonna say NO... 'cause no matter how bad your past is...or how bad your life is...EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON...you can always learn from your mistakes in the past, make it as your stepping stone to be a better person in life....to be a better you!
I was a shy teacher...but now, I'm a successful Supermodel! I've transformed myself from this pitiful Sitti Maemunah into this everyone's favorite it girl Sitti Maemunah. Your life is in no hands of others, but it's in your own hands...you're the one who can decide your future...your life...whether it's good or bad, you're the one who can decide it by your own choices in life! This isn't a memoir of a Queen nor a Heroine....this is a memoir of a Survivor! And if you're reading this...you can learn from my experience as I'm ending my life journey here. I know when to say enough...I'm at the top of the world now, and I know that's enough for me. Life is not about Pleasure, Family, Fortune, Popularity, Knowledge nor Romance....but Life is about how you live it through those aspirations!
My best regards.....Sitti Maemunah.
I'm taking Oceanic Flight 416 going to LA from Sydney with Mas Goen, Siti, Satya and Sophie my best friend. The Oceanic is holding a ceremony as a tribute to those who didn't make it on the island. I'm going because I'm paying a tribute for my mother Sukeisi Napitupulu and to my friends on the island Kathrine Jane, Ansley Lamb, Elizabeth Moira Duncan, and to those who died on the island ever since the crash.
There was a heartbreaking news that I've just discovered lately. My father was one of the shareholders of the Dharma Initiative and so did Sophie's dad. And now my stepsister Nadya has been trying to continue the project after she was divorced by Mas Goen. Now I can see how these are all connected, but I'm too overwhelmed right now to think about that. Right in the middle of the flight, I'm walking myself to the lavatory and I'm so surprised to see all those familiar faces : Jami, Marco, Mckayla, Charlie, Evan, Marion, Nathan, Anne-Marie and Cain with his two children....all in the same flight...WHAT A COINCIDENCE!!! And they are equally shocked to see me too!
That's when an old lady grabs my arm really hard as she's saying these words "You're all are NEVER MEANT TO LEAVE THE ISLAND! and now YOU'RE ALL GONNA COST US TROUBLE!!!" I'm about to ask what she meant by saying that when a GREAT TURBULENCE happens!!! It's like deja vu all over again when I scream "Oh God, SAVE US!" and darkness fills my head.
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"Sitti....are you alright?" I open my eyes slowly as I regain my consciousness and I'm looking at Mas Goen's face, he looks worried. I could hear the screams and shouts from everywhere including my own son's shout. "What...what happened?" I ask Mas Goen, "We've just had a plane crash Sitti....a PLANE CRASH!!!" he answers. That's when I realized that I wake up only to find ourselves LOST ONCE AGAIN!!!
L O S T
THE END
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